A New Perspective

I was listening to my top rated songs on my iPod today and had one of those epiphany moments – you know, where the words in a song that you’ve heard a hundred times before suddenly have more meaning than you ever knew.

The smallest dreams get pushed aside while the largest ones changed my life.
Rite of Spring by Angles & Airwaves.

It’s funny – now I’m living in a city that I never thought I’d even visit and find myself unemployed, looking for freelance writing opportunities and potential full time work. It’s amazing to look back at your life and think of all the plans you had made for yourself and then see how quickly life can put you on another path. Chasing your dreams can really lead you somewhere you never expected.

In this case, I was going after my dream of falling in love, getting married, and finding that one person in the world who never fails to make me smile.

And so here I am – sitting in our little 300 sq. ft. studio that looks more like a dorm room than an apartment. I’ve always heard people say things like “We didn’t have much, but we were happy,” and now that phrase means so much more to me. It’s so wonderful to take a step back and look at everything you do and don’t need and just be able to rely on each other so fully and completely that you feel like you can make it through anything together.

Does that mean it’s easy? No. Does that mean I’m not stressed about struggling to find work? Absolutely not.

I’m just saying that sometimes you have to take risks and leaps of faith in order to follow your dreams.  I took a gigantic leap of faith in myself and in my relationship to leave my last job and move out to San Francisco to be with my fiancé – but you know what? I don’t think I’ve ever been happier.